it has been a year since everything seemed changed..
it has been a year since the moment that make me suffer right now
it has been a year since i have chosen to end up something and decided to renew my self

it has been a year since the moment i realized that there are certain things in me that i urgently need to change
it has been a year since i decided to fix every flaw in my life..
it has been a year since i thought that if i have succeeded renewing my self, i wouldn’t have to hurt anyone again in my life

it has been a year, and i just realized, how stupid i was
for letting go something that might be my only chance for a change in my life

it has been a year, and i just realized that i have to admit to my self that i have lost…

i have lost

i have lost to this world
i have lost to my self
i have lost that i don’t even have the power to admit to my self that i’ve lost
i have lost that i’m still stuck in the same moment

a moment where every pain in my childhood is killing me
a moment where every pain of me being a teeager has changed me
a moment in my early 20’s that everything seemed good and cheerful outside…

it has been a year …. and everyone is moving on with their life
it has been a year since everything seemed changed..

actually everything remains the same… they just seemed different
although they’re not…
and it kills me inside…

it has been a year.. another wasted year of my life….